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Flight Lesson – 27

SCAN0068A clocca is a clock.  A clock is a bell.  A bell marks a watch.  From the tower each hour, the Watchman calls, “All’s well.”   Wæccende, Boatman, remain awake.  Ships watch changes four quarters a day.  Thirty minutes, turn the double bubble upside down.  Second Dog Watch finished.  Eight bells and all is well.  First Watch has begun.  Not till the pendulum swing, did a second make the face.  Chronostasis took place.  Men put time in their pockets, chained to their vests. Shackled time to their wrist.  Wound themselves up by the crown with their free hand.  No longer Watchman standing watch.  They were just men, watching a clock.

I grew up in a house full of clocks. They all chimed at different times.  An 1820 Scottish longcase was the most emergent.  It’s loud quarter hour chimes, overpowered the petite floor clock painted with me and our Newfoundland on its face. The Cuckoo clock in the kitchen rang in when the Glockenspiel remembered to open the door.  The fancy French wall clock was wound daily, but snubbed time regularly.  The brown victorian clock of no origin, nagged at time from the top of the stairs.  The Wilson family clock did not work, just presided over our history.  Silently guarding the mantel and the hearth.  Every hour was a strange ticktocking, chiming in, all at different timing.  I own one clock, and it can be found in the left hand corner of Buddy’s panel.  A 1929 Pioneer Eight Day clock. It’s very rare and I spent years finding the exact one original to my plane.  I am fascinated with that clock.  It runs well but I never wind it.  When I fly, I just move the set of red hands to mark the time I start the engine.  That is the time my watch begins, and I become the Watchman who doesn’t wear a watch.

When I flew for commercial operators, flight was all about time.  Time out. Time off. Time on. Time in.  On schedule.  Behind schedule.  Ahead of schedule.  The measure of a flight was measured by time.  Flying the old planes is different.  You get there when you get there but you get there all the same.  The only presence of time in my cockpit is the red hands marking the start of the engine, and the fuel gauge telling me how long until I land.  There is a timelessness in this type of flying that is a tonic for people in a time obsessed society.  When I sold 30 minute flights, the only question I got about time was, “How much time do we have left?”  A question asked by my flier because they didn’t want the flight to end.  My flights aways ran over, at least 5 minutes.  I had so many hours of Stearman time by then, I felt I could share some extra time with them.  When we returned to the airport the pilots would run to get their logbook, or put the card with their flight time and my CFI signature in their wallets.  Tucked away for safe keeping until they could recount  it into their flight ledgers.  If time is money, then flight time is a gold standard.   A zeitgeber, “time-giver.”  I find it fascinating when I meet a flier, the qualifier they most often define themselves by is flight time.  How many flight hours they have, how long it’s been since they flew last, or how old they were when they started to fly.  Timing their timelines by tenths, spent in, or away from the sky.

I am enjoying being on Sarah time.  Living on the circadian clock of the islands and the lake. There are no working clocks in my cottage this summer, the only sign of time are the bells.  Westminster chimes; singing the song of St. Mary the Great and the Pugilist’s Tower across the lake.  I found myself looking forward to hearing the bells.  Waiting for them.  Then noticing their absence and wondering when they would ring again?  The bells echoing across the water were beautiful, but they were inconsistent.  Some half-hours they didn’t ring at all.  Some times they played a song.  When they chimed the time, they began on the 9’s instead of the 0’s. I began timing the bells to the atomic clock on my computer and trying to find a pattern. Was I in an acoustic shadow?   I like playing connect the dots.    Time to find the source.  I followed the sound of the carillon to the Community Church in town.  A pretty little church on a hill above the lake.  I didn’t see a bell tower.  I asked the Secretary about the church bells.  She didn’t know when they set the bells, or why they played what they did.  She did ask me,  “You do know they are electronic?”  No I did not, but I found it very ironic.  I had become a Kettle and Nob.   A Kettle is Cockney slang for a watch, its origin coming from the phrase, “A watched kettle never boils.”  The bells chimed in their own time, on their own clock.  But they did chime each day, all the same, and it was a joyful noise.  Maybe the seconds they’re early, or late, is extra time we can share on the lake.

Every pilot I’ve ever met, certificated or not, looks up each time a plane fly’s by.  The atomic clock stops for them when they hear the sound of an airplane engine.  They stop what they’re doing and watch that plane fly.  Watchman still, standing watch.  The sound of a plane, like a bell.  Reminding, Wæccende.  I am here.  All’s well.

Happy Fathers Day to all the Watchman.  Dad’s standing watch, guarding the mantel and the hearth.

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Flight Lesson -26

For more than a decade I have been true, fair, and unconditionally loving. You deposited that daily, then pocket-changed me – tossed me in a panhandlers cup of plausible deniability. Leave no proof. A philosophical thought experiment with the truth, like a tree falling and no one hears, did it fall?. It’s so calculated. People see the worst intentions in other people because that’s a reflection of their lives. I have a sense memory of someone who was like me, and that memory is not who they are. When things get lopsided for too long, there isn’t a normal give-and-take, resentment grows. That turns into contempt and contempt is the end of a relationship.

wp01_800x600 In the years counting up to the time you start growing young again, it is easy to forget the worst thing that can happen to anyone is losing their first best friend. People worry about losing so many things, because people think they get to own everything, but that’s the best part of a friend.  Friends choose you and you choose them.

When I first met my first plane, it looked so much bigger than the only other Stearman I knew.  A faded Diana Creme and orange striped plane, that looked just plain. Her owner was my friend and anything but plain.   He was a successful pro athlete who had traded places with whom “he wished he could be,” to actually become it.  A professional barnstormer.  He gave me my first Stearman lessons off Kermit’s private grass strip after his customers had left for the night.  He told me if I could fly a Stearman, I could fly anything.  I loved flying his biplane.  It was light and gentle.  No weight to the controls, no stiffness in the throttle, and no break in the stall.  I named her Crème Puff and left pink lipstick kisses on her metal cowling.  My plane was different.  It wasn’t feminine at all; gleaming in Army blue and yellow military colors.  A stunning 1943 PT-17.  The 111th Stearman Pete Jones restored at AirRepair and given the buzz number 111 by the builder.

A Stearman was a sentimental and dangerous choice for someone with 7 hours of tailwheel time and I was afraid of it.  I was right to be.    My few hours of tailwheel time were not at all compensated by my 3000+ hours of airplane time. While I had flown all types of aircraft, from pistons to jets, I had never really learned how to fly.  My boyfriend at the time Chuck, an unflappable lover of tailwheel airplanes, was the second set of training wheels in my front seat.  Another man who had traded places with whom “he wished he could be,” to actually become it.  A professional warbird pilot.  While both tailwheel teachers had very different styles, they had one thing in common.  They were both way over six feet tall.  Giant guardians of me, blocking any bit of forward visibility with their broad shoulders.  If I complained, they’d prop their arms over the sides of the cockpit cowling and make what little I could see, completely disappear.  I learned quickly not to complain.

Chuck and I left Brandywine, PA on June 11, 2005 to bring my Stearman back to Lakeland, FL.  I said, “This plane is trying to kill me,”  again and again on the trip.   It wasn’t trying to kill me, it was trying to tell me something.  Years of poor pilot technique and neglect had created a pretty unhappy biplane. The plane was definitely a “he” and I named him Blu on the trip home.  His shiny exterior was a veneer, hiding all the things wrong within him.  333 hours on his engine in 11 years wasn’t nearly enough.  One hour before we landed in Lakeland, the rear main bearing went out.  His Continental W670 engine was making metal.  It would have to be taken off, driven to AirRepair in Chuck’s truck, and rebuilt.  A month later, he had an engine with the improved roller bearing.  Next was the gear.  Blu had toe-in and wasn’t rigged right.  Darting, every which way, on take off and landing.  The brakes were mounted wrong.  The scissor-bushings were cracked.  His magneto timing was off.  The worst was the “Continental Cough.”  That was when we had our come-to-Jesus-talk.  Blu would just up and quit on me.  The engine would suddenly stop, then start back up again, with no change of power.  I never knew when it was going to happen. That was NOT allowed and I told him so.  “If I go down you go down.  I can’t fix you if you keep scaring the hell out of me, so cut it out.”   Blu was a mess.  With each failure we fixed him.  I became a self taught Plane Whisperer, explaining things wrong in “Sarah speak” to the best A&P’s in the business.  I flew him back to AirRepair to get his annual inspection early. Had Pete do every possible improvement at great expense.  We flew together on an engine that never missed or failed after that. Then hung a second engine after we had run 1400 hours together on the first.  What I didn’t learn, until after our first year together, was Blu had been totaled in a mid-air collision.  He was a ball of metal, wood, and human flesh embedded into the ground of a duster strip in Mississippi.  Nothing of the original plane remained except the registration paperwork when he was built in 1994.  Planes mirror people in extraordinary ways.  Blu’s physical form had been restored but his history remained.  I learned to operate him with skill and grace and he learned to trust that I would take the very best care of him. Something no pilot had ever done.  We became best friends and two parts of a whole after that first year.  I knew exactly why that plane found me and why I found him.

I sold Blu out of fear.  Fear I would not have enough money to keep him.  Fear I was not big enough to care for two planes in the final years of Buddy’s restoration.  I have no regrets except that one.  Fear.  Everything I have done; that may have been stupid, spontaneous, or even reckless was a decision motivated by love.  But selling Blu was a knee jerk response to fear.  The antithesis of what flying is all about.  I hated every moment of the transition and hated myself for selling.  I sat in the hangar with Blu for weeks, talking.  Promising I would get him back soon.  Blu didn’t believe me but he had never met anyone like me.  I’ve had an army of pilots reporting on my plane’s well-being ever since.  There is a brotherhood among vintage aircraft owners that runs deep.

On the last day of May, I woke up at 4am, and started Googling Blu’s N-number.  My intuition said he was for sale.  I had to get my friend.  Blu was sold and about to be ferried to the new owner in Texas.  Robbie Vajdos was the ferry pilot, a good stick, and one of the brotherhood.  Blu was in safe hands for the moment.  On June 11, ten years to the date I flew him home from Pennsylvania,  I called Robbie to see how I could get my plane back.  Robbie said he had an idea that might work but not sure.  Buy another Stearman for the new owner, give me time to raise the money, and be back on the 29th.  Perfect timing.  I have no idea if the deal will work out or if I can support two planes.  I have far less money than I did then.  The thousands of people I flew in Blu’s front seat have defined me, and him.  Buddy can’t do that.  He was designed for a different mission.  He’s a show plane, not a trainer, and I miss teaching tailwheel.

Are we the sum of who we care for, or is who we care for the sum of who we are?  I have struggled to be anything but my planes.  Something apart, a separate entity with my own identity.  Maybe that’s just a battle between ego and me.  Could I be anything greater than the sum of the people I help to fly?  People who contact me year after year, telling me how flight changed their life.  Healed a wound, erased a fear, gave them a deep connection with joy and freedom.  Is what defines Flight Instructors what defines planes?   A vehicle to lift a human spirit.  Friends chose you and you choose them. 

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